This would work much better if I actually had readers. I will give you two quotations, one from Scripture, and one from a favorite author; you tell me what emotion I'm feeling. If no one guesses correctly, I may offer a hint, such as this one: "they sell medication to help people like me--mind you, you'll need a prescription." The key to this riddle is actually not in my hints, however, but in the passages. Read them thoughtfully--they are about the same thing. Tell me what these paragraphs have in common, and you will have both described my attitude and prescribed the perfect remedy. I really hope you figure this out soon, it's killing me.
"You shall truly tithe all the increase of your grain that the field produces year by year. And you shall eat before the LORD your God, in the place where He chooses to make His name abide, the tithe of your grain and your new wine and your oil, of the firstborn of your herds and your flocks, that you may learn to fear the LORD your God always. But if the journey is too long for you, so that you are not able to carry the tithe, or if the place where the LORD your God chooses to put His name is too far from you, when the LORD your God has blessed you, then you shall exchange it for money, take the money in your hand, and go to the place which the LORD your God chooses. And you shall spend that money for whatever your heart desires: for oxen or sheep, for wine or similar drink, for whatever your heart desires; you shall eat there before the LORD your God, and you shall rejoice, you and your household."
-Deuteronomy 14:22-26 (NKJ)"Not only is suicide a sin, it is the sin. It is the ultimate and absolute evil, the refusal to take an interest in existence; the refusal to take the oath of loyalty to life. The man who kills a man, kills a man. The man who kills himself, kills all men; as far as he is concerned he wipes out the world. His act is worse (symbolically considered) than any rape or dynamite outrage. For it destroys all buildings: it insults all women. The thief is satisfied with diamonds; but the suicide is not: that is his crime. He cannot be bribed, even by the blazing stones of the Celestial City. The thief compliments the things he steals, if not the owner of them. But the suicide insults everything on earth by not stealing it. He defiles every flower by refusing to live for its sake."
-G. K. Chesterton (Orthodoxy)
